Well, I'm leaving in 8 days. Tomorrow I'm doing my Driver's test again. I'll be having my last church service on Sunday. To say the least? I'm feaking out!

I don't know where my emotions are. I'm happy, sad, scared, excited! (That sounded like a quote from Funny Girl...) What am I even talking about? Anyway, all my stuff is packed except for the things I'm taking in my suitcase and my bookshelves are empty. It's strange, but that's having the worst effect on me. Empty bookshelves means permanent departure...

I am really going to miss my family. Avril especially... it's amazing what God has done with our relationship and I've come to rely on her so much for advice and support. I guess I'll be sending TONS of e-mails. I cried for so long last night... but a strange mix of excited and sad tears. Weird. I've, of course, been having weird nightmares about losing my passport and other crazy things and have also been plagued by a series of terryfing ghost dreams. Doubly weird. On top of that, the tap in our bathroom suddenly started running at 2 a.m. On its own. Without cause. O_o Why? Ok, so I'm being weirdly paranoid here, but it freaked me out in the middle of the night ok?

That aside, the WGA strike is FINALLY over. Yes! There's a possibility of 10 more 30 rock episodes this season. My fan heart is happy... :)

I was thinking about it though, this strike has been terrible for shows that were just starting out. Some shows got cancelled because they didn't have the ratings to come back for a mini-season at the end of all this. Which is so unfair for shows that barely had time to air their Pilot episode. I would hate to be on of the people involved in those. Besides, it's possible we missed out on what could have been really great television. Which sucks. Well, if you care about television. :P

On a completely random tangent, I'm reading Mary Poppins which was given to me by the perfectly wonderful roseph, thanks so much my Ro-Boat... It's awesome of course and I love that Mary Poppins isn't a nice person, she's vain, rude and never wrong. Brilliant. Loving it along with The Hours once again, depending on what I feel like reading. I am still awed by the amazingness of Michael Cunningham and his ability to write the thoughts of three very complex women. Also, his descriptions are some of the best, with a mix of simple methapors and random observations. Will get to Atonement eventually, but it'll have to wait until I'm finished with my Woolf binge. :)

Talking of books, I've finally reached 100 Pages of mine after abandoning it for a little while and finally regaining the discipline to continue. Yay! it still sucks, but hey, it's not like I'm trying to win the Pullitzer. If I were, the word 'huskily' would not be in my novel. Which, I'm ashamed to say, it is...

Well, that's all for now folks. More on the Driver's tomorrow. Hopefully it's good news... :P

Wow, my dad booked my ticket today. I'm leaving on the 21st, which means I won't get to see Sweeney Todd before I leave Ali... :( For the first time today though, I realised that I'm leaving in 16 days. I didn't cry or get hysterical, but I felt my heart jump. Kind of like I'd just got a fright. It's so bizarre when something actually happens that you've been waiting so long for...

The only thing I can compare it to is being on stage. When you're going to perform, there's this rush of panic that happens just before you're going to go on. You know there's nothing you can do about it and that the moment is coming closer and closer. Much like a train when you're tied to the tracks. Only less deadly. I'm very excited now though, I know that this is right for me for the moment. The only trouble is that it's going to be like ripping out my soul to part from friends and the family that's come to mean so much to me.

Then there's Etienne. I'm so confused right now, I have NO IDEA how I feel anymore and I think it's important that I let him know about my confusion. We're sitting down to lunch tomorrow, so maybe then will be a good time to share my honest feelings. It's going to be so hard... Arg! I have no idea.

It's quite eerie actually, almost like leaving school was. Knowing that you won't be back in the next couple of months. Knowing that life will continue without you and that people will keep moving on. It's crazy really. It's also hugely exciting, knowing that I have a fresh start. Also it's an excellent opportuniy to get to know my family. People I've loved but haven't known my whole life. New friends, new church, new family. It seems so removed from a real timeline. Of course I'll always have my family and LJ, not to mention Facebook and my good old e-mail account... Hey, you should all leave e-mail addresses... that way I can contact all of you. :)

On a completely shallow and random note, new X-Files pictures from the set! Finally, a glimpse of Dana Scully... Oh how I have missed her and her snide humour. The script remains under wraps, but something about a werewolf was discovered by a set-snooper, so that seems to be the running rumour at the moment. Weird. Well, as long as we avoid aliens and government conspiracies, I'm sure this film will be better than the first. :) Oh, apparently, my photobucket account is under maintenance... Hmm, I'll post them at another time then.

Anyway, I'm now reading Notes on a Scandal. O_o is all I can say. Brilliant. Scary, but brilliant. Strangely, it gives me a desire to read Virginia Woolf again. I'm craving 'To the Lighthouse' right now... I'll read it when I'm done with the mountain of books that I'm suddenly reading. I also want to read 'Atonement' before I see the film. So, I may as well get reading...