Here are those X-Files images I was talking about. Squee for Scully and Mulder back together in a reasonable setting! :)

( Finally, it's happening. )

Wow, my dad booked my ticket today. I'm leaving on the 21st, which means I won't get to see Sweeney Todd before I leave Ali... :( For the first time today though, I realised that I'm leaving in 16 days. I didn't cry or get hysterical, but I felt my heart jump. Kind of like I'd just got a fright. It's so bizarre when something actually happens that you've been waiting so long for...

The only thing I can compare it to is being on stage. When you're going to perform, there's this rush of panic that happens just before you're going to go on. You know there's nothing you can do about it and that the moment is coming closer and closer. Much like a train when you're tied to the tracks. Only less deadly. I'm very excited now though, I know that this is right for me for the moment. The only trouble is that it's going to be like ripping out my soul to part from friends and the family that's come to mean so much to me.

Then there's Etienne. I'm so confused right now, I have NO IDEA how I feel anymore and I think it's important that I let him know about my confusion. We're sitting down to lunch tomorrow, so maybe then will be a good time to share my honest feelings. It's going to be so hard... Arg! I have no idea.

It's quite eerie actually, almost like leaving school was. Knowing that you won't be back in the next couple of months. Knowing that life will continue without you and that people will keep moving on. It's crazy really. It's also hugely exciting, knowing that I have a fresh start. Also it's an excellent opportuniy to get to know my family. People I've loved but haven't known my whole life. New friends, new church, new family. It seems so removed from a real timeline. Of course I'll always have my family and LJ, not to mention Facebook and my good old e-mail account... Hey, you should all leave e-mail addresses... that way I can contact all of you. :)

On a completely shallow and random note, new X-Files pictures from the set! Finally, a glimpse of Dana Scully... Oh how I have missed her and her snide humour. The script remains under wraps, but something about a werewolf was discovered by a set-snooper, so that seems to be the running rumour at the moment. Weird. Well, as long as we avoid aliens and government conspiracies, I'm sure this film will be better than the first. :) Oh, apparently, my photobucket account is under maintenance... Hmm, I'll post them at another time then.

Anyway, I'm now reading Notes on a Scandal. O_o is all I can say. Brilliant. Scary, but brilliant. Strangely, it gives me a desire to read Virginia Woolf again. I'm craving 'To the Lighthouse' right now... I'll read it when I'm done with the mountain of books that I'm suddenly reading. I also want to read 'Atonement' before I see the film. So, I may as well get reading...