Ok, so I'm horrible at keeping a journal. It's official. Although I think you all knew that anyway... Also, this laptop has a funky 'l' key, so if I miss in l's along the way, know why! (Like "On the pus side!") Ew.

So, I'm back in South Africa and loving it! I've got to see almost everyone I wanted to or will be seeing them in the new year. Can't wait to hang out with some of my nerds again! There has been a void deep in my soul where 30 Seconds used to be...

Seeing Et again wasn't as awkward as I thought it'd be. He was very calm and cool about it... Also I look a little different than when I left and I'm 99.9% sure he's still in love with me, which is both hard to manage and fantastic for my self-esteem. (As Liz would say, "Eat it up Cleveland...") I really don't want to hurt him anymore though... so, we'll have to see how my being here progresses. Also, he tried to kiss me when he left. Out of sheer habit I'm sure... Ok, so maybe a little awkward. *headdesk*

I am also missing home terribly. Who knew? It seems somewhat bizarre! Luckily seperation from Crush Guy has resulted in my feeling more at ease about the situation there. I can finally relax and just build a friendship with him. Hooray! No more feeing like a 14 year old with hormonal issues and smiling "Back off!" at people. I hate hormones...

Well, tomorrow I'm off to Sun City, which should be fun. (I've actually got a tan from being in Ballito which is strange for me.) Anyway, Happy New Year everyone! Hope the holidays are good to you all. Can't wait to see some of you... :)